ELEGY FOR MY FORMER ACCOUNTANT
(some details have been changed)
Every month, Jimbo, I would drive
to your house on Red Barn Road, your
office in the cement-smelling
basement, where we'd go over
my mounds of papers.
Your mood disorder, we thought,
was caused by sexual abuse at the
seminary. You wanted to
be a servant of Christ.
Plied with red wine,
you were made drunk by two
priests in black garb. How
your voice trembled
as we talked about it.
Cancer stalked you. When one
variety left, another one came.
Your throat cancer left you
talking like a hoarse
Bruce Springsteen.
Remember when we went upstairs
and both bent over the open
fridge? You made me a ham sandwich,
Jew that I am. On seeded rye
with mayo mustard lettuce and
fat slices of Jersey tomatoes.
We sat at the table. That witch
of a wife wasn't home. She
almost left you after your
diagnosis and your monthly shots
of Prolixin.
"Delicious," I said. "This is
as close as we'll ever get
to having sex."
You died in 2016. I left a
comment on the Legacy note,
calling you Jimbo.
What I'd like to do
is visit you at the cemetery.
The tombstones are shaped
like teeth. I'd fling myself
down, weep, and say, Valiant Warrior,
your journey is done. You,
dear Jimbo, remain
embedded deep in my heart.