I saw her, and I'm sure she knows it by now. Hope it was good for her, not sure if I can stop what I feel has to be done, for me there is just no other way, none that I can think of right this painful second, painful that's not the right word for how I feel right now. I'm going to take care of this, take care of her and that prick, no that.... doesn't matter he's dead after the bitch he's dead. What the hell happened? this kinda thing just don't happen to me, never has and when I'm finished it won't ever happen again.

My life was good, well until the world blew up in my face. It's her fault and now the only thing left to do is in the form of a knife yes that's it, slit her pretty face and reveal who she really is, show her I will cut up her fucking little cheating face make her pay for doing wrong by me, No one makes me out to be a fool not her not anyone. What is this I'm feeling revenge, not revenge but retribution, I saw evil today and I know what has to be done. Two birds with one stone or knife in my case, when I finish with that; with that evil bitch, I will take that mans head, I have the power to do it and nothing will stop me, I wont be able to stop me, I finish what I start and always have. Why am I wasting time with thinking?, just go and fucking do it already, like my father always said to me "son you have to stand up for yourself, don't be a pussy all your life" and somehow it came across mean but he was right I am a pussy but not any longer, all that is going to change starting now, right now!.

Told the boss to fuck himself, "I need to take control of my life, unlike you, you fat fuck" Got sacked I kinda expected that would happen, but that's not important, what's important is erasing everything I had, well ok thought I had. I promised 'Till Death Do We Part' so that's what will be done 'thy will be done' time to rid the evil from my life, starting with my so called wife, rhyming in my head now, can't do that maybe I have just my mind, maybe just maybe this is a dream, not a dream a nightmare and A big one at that, yes that's all this is."just keep telling yourself it's a nightmare maybe just maybe this is real and the rest of your screwed up life is the nightmare" maybe I am crazy now I'm hearing voices in my head "get off your ass and do something with your life, focus on the problem at hand" arrr get out of my head, give my mind back, I will do what needs to be done on my own.

Sitting in my black car, she chose the colour, now I no why it matches the black hole where her heart should be, corner of my eye caught a lone silhouette in the upstairs window, my bedroom window of my. The house I paid for with my job while she sat on her ass and fucked another man, maybe there was more then one, maybe I should force it out of her, before I cut her throat out. I must make sure I gut deep enough to make her bleed to death, maybe then she will see and feel the pain she put me through, teach that bitch a lesson, her last lesson. Right now's the time it feels right,right when I get in there I'm going to ge,,,t, ah fucking gutter, damn it get it together "get up you ass"SHUT UP! I will do this on my own, I don't need voices to guide me. Ok if this is a dream wake me up now,"sweet heart, where are you?" "In the bath what are you doing home so early" god her voice makes me weak, snap out of it she needs to be taken care of right now "I needed to um,, I needed to k-- I mean see you".

As I reached the stairs I could feel or sence something deep inside me trying to stop me, no no no! hang on I need a knife, Kitchen this one will do, time to finish this. A light in the room seemed brighter then usual, it was blue, I remember her saying I want a blue light, it had something to do with what did she say that's right 'get blue cause you look sexy under blue light' why didn't she get red, the fucking slut. Ok in the room now, "Hun you still in the bath" no answer maybe she drown, "yeah I am, hay babe, I'm horny, if you come in I will give you a blow job", I don't want the mouth of a slut on any part of me, "I have something else in mind, you will like it, or maybe not". As I entered there she was long black hair soaking wet, with out hesitation I grabbed her wet hair and with strength I had no idea I had I pulled her glistening naked body out of the bath, her hair slipped out of my hands, she fell and hit her head on the edge of the bath. She lay naked on the tiles bleeding from the head, "argh babe I can't move, I'm cold", " cold yeah you are laying on tiles naked 'Babe', don't worry you wont feel anything soon", I raised the knife in view of her beautiful Hazel eyes, her eyes showed fear and shock at the same time.

She lay there in silence looking up into my eyes, but I knew what I was about to do had to be done; it had to be done it was the only way to show that nobody fucks with me. "You fucking bitch, I gave you everything,all you gave me was a FUCKING broken heart, and for that you are going to die", I slit her on the forehead the first cut was the deepest "how many were there you bitch, one?, two?, how many?" she looked up at me, I read her eyes and instead of fear, it was like she knew her life was going to end on this cold afternoon. She tried to speak but nothing came out. A tear ran off down the side of her face dropping on to the pale blue diamond shaped tiles by now the blood from the back of her head had made it to the wash basin. I raised the knife a drop of her blood rolled of the razor sharp edge of the knife and splashed on to her bright red lips, her eyes had a glow had seen once before.

It was on a cold winters night, we were so in love. I remember that night we were laying on the grass looking up at the sky, it was a really clear night it seemed like there were a million stars shining down on us. She looked at me, her eyes were glowing just like they were as I stood over her in the present time, she said to me that no matter what happened we would be together forever, somehow I don't see how that could be, being how she was about to die right in front of me, and not to mention she was going to die by my hands. I drove the knife deep into her right arm, I must have hit a main artery because blood sprayed across the white bathroom wall, some landed on my white button up shirt that I wore to work that day. She tried to scream but she was too weak at the stage, blood kept pouring out of her arm, it would not stop, I then dug the knife into her neck and with a quick flick of my wrist the knife slid from one end of her neck to the other, the blood sprayed on to her breasts, I could picture his mouth biting into them so I raised the knife and drove it in to her chest over and over.

I lost count of how many times I did it, maybe it was somewhere in between ten to twenty times, maybe it was more I could not be sure. At some point I had put the knife down on the tile floor so I picked it back up and left the room, I took one last look, what I saw was not my wife, not the love of my life, just a woman that fucked up my life. The blood continued to rush out the hole in her neck, blood was everywhere I could not see the pale blue tiles anymore all I could see was two shades of red, I turned and headed back to my car parked across the street, it was raining hard by that time. Lightning struck a nearby power pole, the bang seemed to go inline with the clap of thunder, sparks flew into the sky, then the street went pitch black. The strike had knocked the power out on one side of the street, I was left in the dark, I swear I could hear laughing in the back of my head but I payed no mind to it.

I jumped into the car dropped the knife on the passenger seat and squealed off into the night, the car slid from side to side in a fishtail, for a second I thought I was going to spin out of control, I managed to straighten the car up. I knew where I was going, I had followed him home one night, he lived in a two story house, it was ten times nicer then mine but soon it would be filled with his blood, well that was the plan anyway. I arrived at his house at 8:03pm. Strange I thought, did it really take me three hours to kill my wife. I stopped that line of thought and continued to his door. I kicked the door in to my surprise it actuary worked the door flew open, it made a loud enough noise but it appeared the owner of the house had not heard it or maybe he did and he was laying in wait to defend his home. Yes it was a risk I just had to take, I had already come to far to give up now, I know that by now I was as cold, no colder then she had been, sure she cheated on me but that was nothing compared to what I had done. Yes I had realised that what I was doing; what I was thinking was wrong that of a psycho, how did I become that person?, could it be that it was in me the whole time?.

The darkness had got a hold of me and it did not plan to leave until it had consumed me completely, and even then it would not go without a fight, what was about to happen was like a release form reality. The fate, his fate or mine would be decided tonight, death lingered in the air I could feel it in my soul, well in what was left of my broken soul. I knew no matter how it would end, I knew deep inside that I could not go back to my old life, my life was hers so by killing her I was killing myself, a murder committed by my broken heart. No that's stupid, I did it I wanted to do it, and now it's done, can't be undone. Oh my god I killed her, stabbed her to death, What had I done? it doesn't matter now I have to finish what I had started. I looked down at the knife in my had, I had forgotten I was even holding it, simply because I could not feel anything, it's like my body just shut down, inside I was dead.

I climbed the stairs, I felt something wet roll down my face, A tear maybe, yes it was one single tear, then I realised I was hurting inside, I had become the shadow of my former self. I reached the top of the stairs, I saw a shadow move in the room to my right, I entered I staggered and everything went burry, I found myself on the floor, someone was talking but it sounded miles away, or was it me that was miles away. "Take that you fuck" said the voice, at that moment I realised I had been hit by a steel baseball bat, blood was running into my eyes, it stung like a bitch. I managed to stand up, I saw the bat coming toward my face, I somehow grabbed it and yanked it out of his hand, I swung it at him, everything was still burry, so of cause I missed, he charged at me, and before I knew it I was falling with glass. All I remember is a window then the ground, blood flew out of my mouth, then landed back on my face, I looked at my hand, the knife was still there, the last thing I saw was the blood of my wife. My eyes closed, all of a sudden I was looking down at myself, at that moment I realised what she meant when she said forever, it meant forever together, that is what it was and that's how it ends, my life was over, but somehow I knew I was facing hell. This was my nightmare, my home for all eternity, I had set out for revenge what I got was a one way ticket on the nightmare express, sold my soul just because I lost control. She cheated on me but I truly miss her and I still love her, A lot of good that does me now, How did I get here? I will tell you how, I danced with the devil, tripped and fell now I'm in hell...