Chapter 1 - The Flash

I looked at her face with incredulity as she fell down on the hard floor, hitting the edge of the table, holding a bottle of whisky in one hand; I picked up the photo of us on the first day we met. Felt like our first till it ended. She liked a sophisticated man and I liked it simple; combined for love.

Do you believe in first sight love? I sure didn't till I met her; the women in red; her red dress and lips, all gave her a red theme;

"Flash" the sound of the beginning of my life, as the camera man at the carnival took our picture. I was making a life time plan for our kids that we were going to grow and love and support to go to college and our future; to grow old with each other hopefully not by each other.

And then again I saw it all in her eyes, as she smiled and said "what? What's wrong?"

I asked her "Do you believe in taking a giant leap of faith?"

She said in a girlish reluctant way "hmm"yes, I guess"

I thought it would be wise not freak her out with my lifelong plans, at least not on our first date.

I took her to my place, though that rarely happens on first date, my house was closer and I guess I "accidentally" or rather desperately spilled my drink on her dress.

For a second I came to myself and decided to stop this act of selfishness but when I heard the sound of the flashes of the camera man behind me, flashes of the beautiful future that we can make, clouded my judgment, for better or worse.

"Come on right in! And make yourself feel at home, I'll be back with some paper towel from the kitchen, just a sec", as I walked in to the kitchen I saw flashes of the future; she was cooking for me and our daughter whom I just came from, trying to convince her for not having a mobile phone, for all the side effects. I would come slowly from behind her trying to surprise her, as she cooks the delicious pasta she knows very well""

"Is this you, in this picture" she asked

I woke up from the beautiful soon come true dream and tried to get some paper towels and get back to her.

"Yes, I was in the war, the reason why there is whisky bottle in my hand and the reason why I go to group meeting to try to dissss""

As I came in the living room i looked at her face with incredulity as she fell down on the hard floor, hitting the edge of the table, holding a bottle of whisky in one hand I ran to the phone called,991.

"We have your address".what is the problem?"

"There has been an accident, a neck injury, I need an ambulance""

"Is that you again, listen for the last time, your wife or whatever is death do you understand, nothing you could have done would have saved her, now this is an emergency line, stop""

"No, no, if only I wasn't so selfish, she""

"Well if there is no other confessions you want to make, I am going to hang up now."

"Yes, I would like report a suicieeeeheheee""

"Hello, hello are you there""

"Flash" the sound of the beginning of my life, as the camera man at the carnival took our picture. I was making a life time plan for our kids that we were going to grow and love and support to go to college and our future; to grow old with each other hopefully not by each other.

"Flash" the sound of the end of my life as my life came in front of me, all the things that I had done", suddenly a bright light came to my happiness in the hope of joining her in the next life, suddenly faded away, and a dark and angry" came for my sins"

And I was stuck between the world, heaven and hell.

Coming soon chapter 2 "

A Chat with her in between it all